But now, now I am ready. Ready to let all the worry of going back to that sad place go. It has been a long, long road but I have to keep moving. I have to be healthy. I have to be happy.
I am happy. I am over the moon that come October 2011 we will have another little bambino in the Hill household. If this little person is half as cool as his/her older brother we will be golden. We have been so blessed with Chaz. He is a wonderful, smart, happy, healthy, HILARIOUS and loving little boy. That is all I want. Another happy, healthy baby.
We are about to start the beginning of my 19th week. I am starting to show--some days more than others. I am FINALLY not puking every five seconds. I am moody as sin and can't sleep so I think things are going great :) HA!
This is the little pie when it was 8 weeks along.

Yes, it has taken me 11 weeks to gain courage to know I won't jinx this pregnancy. I am in a safe zone and we pray all will go as planned. I cried and I prayed... A LOT! I believe that God will not give you more than you can handle.. but I was tested. And I made it. I survived. I may still be sad, a little more emotional than normal and probably A LOT more on edge than I was during Chaz's pregnancy. But that is ok. I am trying and that is really all I can do.I can feel the baby kick which is so reassuring. and as many moms will tell you.. it makes it more "real." Although the little bugger likes to kick when I am trying to sleep. It is ok. It is worth it. We find out next week if this little person will be a boy or a girl. We would love another boy but again, as long as it is healthy, we are good.
Chaz is convinced it is a girl. Up until a few weeks ago he wouldn't even talk about the possibility of it being a boy. If you asked him he would say "No, it isn't a boy it is a girl baby." A few weeks back he decided that if it was a boy he would call him "boy buddy." He is super excited to have another little person in the house.
We have names 90% picked but I won't share those until I know the sex of the baby. Stay tuned.
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